Clueless

Is it only me or are there more like me? I feel life’s come to a standstill. Not now, but it’s been so, for some time now. Life’s become like a saas-bahu soap (not in the literal sense) that just keeps crossing milestones in terms of episodes with time but would never move an inch in its content (alright, now all u saas bahu soap viewers’ association members or their supporters, IFF any, please don’t gang up on me, I’m not in a mood to prove my point).

If I just walk back in time by a couple of years, I’m pretty sure there’s nothing much I’d miss, for there’s nothing that made an iota of change/impact in my life. May be I’d loose an inch on my waist n gain some hair on my head, I can’t think of anything else that would make any difference. If I start thinking and try listing down something useful and satisfying work that I’ve done during this time, I’m sure it’d not cross 10, why’s it so? Is this how it’s going to be or rather I’m letting it be?

When somebody comes up with those brilliant questions like, what I’d be doing 20 years from now, I just can’t answer it, leave 20 years, I don’t have plans for what I’d be doing even 2 years from now. I feel I’m not in control of it, it’s like a plane flying on auto-pilot, good as long as it stays in air, you never know when it’s going to crash. So, am I preparing for this crash and getting myself crash ready? Definitely not. Do I have any contingency plans on how to bring things on track, nope... none!

I definitely need some enlightment, somebody please point me to the nearest peepal tree.